princess felicia

2008-10-21T15:02:00.004+08:00

some really amazing voice ;;

OneRepublic "Apologize " Cover Contest Winner

amazing pianist - check out his other videos
wake me up when semptember comes

Wonderwall - Oasis

2008-10-19T20:13:00.000+08:00

old times are back
dota and blogging.

road trip

2008-09-09T10:43:00.002+08:00

Last minute road trip decision -- to Malaysia
Gonna head to Penang, Langkawi and Cameron Highlands for a week!
Then when i head back, gonna be away to Osaka for another week and UK for a month.
Guess birthday bash is off huh?!

Gosta go,
lurve all.

take note

2008-08-21T13:27:00.001+08:00

rachelle's singing performance;

wednesday (27/08) @ 2:00pm @ NTU School of Art, Design and Media Level B1 room 03 (ARTB1-03)

goodbye

2008-08-12T18:16:00.001+08:00

for now.

ja, mata.

Canopy and Sembawang Park

2008-07-21T16:34:00.001+08:00

Went to Canopy and Sembawang park with Hendry, Helena and Alan.
Shouldn't elaborate, let the pictures do the talking;

The End.

Nirvana.. Soon.

2008-07-16T01:39:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is my BIG DAY.
Not my wedding day, but my assessment day!
Supervisor is coming down at 9.30am
Have to get ready with all the fruits, teaching tips, time control, classroom management skills all on my fingertips.
SPELL S-T-R-E-S-S.

All the sleepless nights will end!
I simply can't wait for all to be done.
Please pray for me.

it'll be nirvana.. soon. :D

Nikon D40

2008-07-05T18:13:00.001+08:00

Camwhoring has restarted!
I bought a Nikon D40 and it's serving its purpose. Haha.
Will update soon with pictures of ice skating trips, with the NPHopies and Donald, my attachment place with the kids, my different dinner spots this week and some other random pictures.

The second week of practicum has ended. that means i'm left with two more weeks to go! i'm so cited. haha.

I wrote again;

don't hesitate
no one is going to tell you to wait
or tell you it's time to leave
everybody's staring and it's frustrating
when nothing's coming

the wind is blowing so strongly on your face
it's making you wana cry
everybody just kept staring
like something's gonna come

but it's not coming, you know,
it's not coming, do they know?
maybe waiting isn't the best choice
it's meaningless, they don't know that
tears are falling down
and nothing's gonna come
to save us

anticipating,
problems fluctuating
keep staring,
at the ends of the days,
no more

3 more weeks to go

2008-06-30T23:05:00.001+08:00

This is the start of my second week of practicum.
My centre is bursting with attachment students.
So glad that one of them is attached to my class and we can get along quite well! I'm starting to initiate conversations more; this place is becoming more bearable. i guess i do give out the don't-bother-me look.

Last Friday when i was going back to school my administrator was telling me that my principal complained to her saying i didn't pass her my lesson plans and filling in the wrong timing on the time sheet. i feel so maligned by her. Excuse me but she can jolly well talk to me when i see her everyday in her office to sign the time sheet? I can tell her how the whole system works. And since i'm signing the time sheet in front of her, if you are unhappy about the time i stated and wanted it so precisely to the minute then why didn't you tell me about it when i pass the time sheet to you?
Just today she told me to change my on-site assessment date (whereby my supervisor will come down and assess me on my teaching) because the NP student happened to have the same date as me and she insisted that there shouldn't be two assessment on the same day EVEN when i have informed her my assessment date way before. She just smiled at me and said i didn't let her know at all. How damn ridiculous some people can get. even my colleague remembered me telling.
And why i am the one that she asked to change?

I feel that i allow her to step all over me. I really wanted to fight her face on. (Lol like i would)
Anyway,

To-Do List: (by end of this week)
1. Fix a new on-site assessment date with my supervisor
2. Find out a list of colleges available for speech therapy and educational psychology.
3. Come out with 15 ideas for learning corners
4. Come out with the list of learning corners items needed
5. Buy them!

I've three more weeks to go.
i can't wait to get out of her face!

Graduation; you'll be sweeter than any others.

Reality check -- the most honest entry you could ever find

2008-06-29T00:40:00.001+08:00

Holidays finally ended.
Monday - Fridays are used up doing free labour -- Practicum.
my 7/8 hours are at least worthy of some moolah!
but apparently, it seems not.
instead the company gets $140.00 on my behalf.
How absurd and ridiculous it is when i saw it on the company's folder one fine day.
so because of the lack of money, i have to take up an evening 7-10 job doing telemarketing with a quota of 2 appointments a day.
tiring week with a 9am-10pm schedule; 13 hours of work.

I was forced to think if life is tough.
the reality of life, money, independence, adulthood suddenly hit me.
the next thing i know tears are welling in my eyes and my heart hurts as if someone is clutching it.

all i'm thinking is,
"Felicia you're 21 this year, and you need to start being independent, having your own financial stability, better start planning & doing something to build your future. Try to win back the lost time you wasted."

Working in the real world can be really depressing here especially in Singapore where it's so fast paced and high demand in performance.
Many times when i realised how ugly life can get; mean, self-centred and i-don't-know-what-they-are-thinking people can get to me, how they purposely make life difficult for people really disgust me. My first instinct was to ignore but it was too much and i was wondering why would people want to make things hard for others where they could just jolly well have a better world/community if they could just compromise and be accepting to each other.

and many times, it is so tempting to creep back to my shelter, to my parents, where i will always be provided for, protected and treated ever so kindly even if i make the ugliest mistake in my life.

No matter how many entries i write i can never justify how cold i feel about this world.
So contrasting to the world God place me when i was a child, so warm and beautiful. Or maybe this is the reality of adulthood.
That is why the world find it hard to believe and accept there are good free things in this world.

I'm at the jamming studio with the blasting music i wrote. unlike the usual quiet tea and shortcakes sessions i have with my laptop.
Somehow the thoughts can flow with the background, i guess my thoughts are finally screaming out of me.

I need to be strong now (and the time to come).

Windows Live Writer

2008-06-11T21:41:00.001+08:00

I just took out the new laptop that my dad wanted to sell and man, it's so nice I just want to keep for myself.

.. and I did.

Here am I typing away with the new laptop and my newly discovered applications. They are very user friendly. Window Vista is really quite a new toy to me now as I search around the net to find many gadgets that goes along with it.

One of many applications I just download is the Windows Live Writer. It allows me to cut down the number of clicks to get to my other blogs compared to blogger, link them all together so all my drafts that I typed can be sent to my various blogs, accessed from my computer directly, automated check-as-you-type spelling check (like Microsoft Word), very nice layout and graphic design and multiple buttons for easy editing and writing (or typing in this case).

Another application that comes in the package is Windows Live Mail that works some sort like a PDA putting all your different accounts from Gmail, Hotmail, Yahoo! etc all into in one window. Now I have all my emails in one window and it alerts me once a new email is received. Very fun!

Simply fascinating!

the 2nd june entry

2008-06-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

IT'S HOLS!
till 23june at least. i'm allowing myself to relax and slack until my very last lap in july before i graduate in august! then after i'll be going to america for my graduation trip for 2 months! more details on that soon.

what have i been up to?
it's such a tough question, sometimes even i wonder what am i really doing.
you know, really, doing doing? like doing something meaningful.
speaking as a true spontaneous person, things just fall into place as it is.
few preplanned, most unplanned, just taking whatever that comes.

i remembered last last week i was busy going for the olso castaways acoustic gigs held at three different places on three different days. really enjoyed the clear guitar and bass sounds from the familiar tunes from them. fresh!
and last week was really boring doing all the assignments. some perks would be getting back my assignment with an A! (that assignment was 25credits i think!) and of course the many supper nights that goes along with my mugging; different places to mug and munch. cheerios!

Just saturday through sunday i went to joshua's house for the very first time with G, John, Hendry and Helena for some peranakan dishes! Josh's dad sure can cook decent peranakan food man! tasty! and i heard special occasions serving and variety was bigger and wider! yum.
we headed to east coast park after, then old changi hospital. Lol, G and me stayed in the car doing some heart to heart talk. haha what very dark and intimate talk indeed. Lol. there were full of flies and moths that will fly into you the moment you had your lights on. i couldnt imagine all the flies flying into my window when i was about to switch on the indoor car lights so i stopped myself.
but old changi hospital sure is one packed haunted building. not with ghost but with humans. that day was so packed it is as though OCH has electric lights. people who wants the thrill didnt want to go in anymore.

hmm,
since its holidays i hope this blog will be updated more often heh,
going to joo chiat to eat some really delicious bah kut teh and pork knuckles now!

how fun is it when i'm typing this and B's biting the soft toy nose and barking at it as if it's her opponent in her own fantasy dog match.

zoom!

2008-05-06T23:34:00.003+08:00

life's at one of its peak now (:
enjoying all the busy school schedules, late night suppers with the "chompers" (you guys know who you are), enjoying the company, new experiences at band recordings and practices, discipling and playing with B, and little exercises here and there, increasing my spiritual health, getting in touch with my inner self ;
a good balance.

went for rollerblading not long ago, i'm quite proud of myself that i bladed consistently from the macdonald to the end of ECP after such a long time since i last really exercised. (was it nafa? lol) it was really fun and much safer now that all the humps are flattened and removed! no more balding over humps with chances of rolling backwards haha.

really love our chomp chomp/newton circus moments when i get to eat mussels whenver i crave for it! i shall declare i have switched my liking from hum to mussels now that i realised mussels are so much cleaner and tastier. and i also concluded that the first stall in chomp chomp really has the best mussels thus far!

started to write songs again, this time having great help in the tunes!
maybe i can start recording a personal album for self entertainment and enjoyment Lol.
made so many new and sincere friends these days.
life's good!

i'm craving for mussels again!
woot. :D

..as you can open up hannah's womb, you can bring life into anything that is dead!

2008-04-22T22:27:00.001+08:00

recently i realised,
reassurance and openess is so important.
it really keeps a friendship going strong.

i'm very lucky to have found such a sincere, open, confident, trusting, accepting yet honest, funny, spontaneous, adventurous, crazily fun, slow to judge, hungry for growth, always assuring, perservering, charming, communicative, independent, dependable you.
(and oh how can i forget cheesy.)

do you know you are amazing hendry joe? (:
you made me realise so many things.
i've learnt not to be shy about praising or proclaiming your love (now and then) to your love ones. and i apply! lol.
and there's more. haha

(you probably wont see this but it doesnt matter (:)

very limited vocabulary

2008-04-18T14:59:00.000+08:00

i need the common understanding. (:

The next phase

2008-04-18T00:18:00.001+08:00

The new phase of life just started;
It has been a wild ride, indescrible.
Sometimes it's frustrating words doesnt justify the emotions, the happenings.
But then again it shows me that how trust, acceptance and love is so important; that it is not about how much you can prove or convince someone agrees with you.

This is a test of friendship.
That new phase.

FW: 0406080408

2008-04-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

From: Felicia Ngiam <theroyalprincess@gmail.com>
Sent: Wednesday, April 09, 2008 7:16 PM
To: mobile@blogger.com
Subject: 0406080408

"prepare for worse sore eyes tomorrow. *silent* oh that's so cheesy"

"so... What secondary school were you from?'
"whitley"
*chokes*
"what?!"
"i'm from there too"
"for real?!"
"oh my god?"
"oh my god."

"hey! lady bug."

"bye."
*silence*
"Eh, dont cry la."
"-.- hahahaha"

"Friday night, saturday, come back on sunday... If you're cool we can go right away."
"i'm cool."

The poem

2008-03-27T11:33:00.000+08:00

There you go

On a blue day morning
I wana hold your hand
Whisper into my ears you would
Everytime we meet

A smile is all i could do
When i see you dear
Hold me forever
I'll live with no regrets

But if you've to leave
Dont let anything stop you
Do what makes you happy dear
Just keep me close to your heart.

I'll always remember you
Support and love you
I'll be there when you need me dear
Rest assured

Miss you i could everyday
Keeping our memories in mind
My heart is filled by you my love
I could always relive it

-fel

random updates

2008-03-24T19:03:00.004+08:00

i love this song and its lyrics.

did my hair extensions!(:
it's really long now. to my waist. and the best thing is that nobody really noticed till i kinda hinted them.
Went with Rachelle and her sister on sat, before service, to do it at far east's mine's salon, on the fourth floor. i would recommend anyone that wants to do their extensions there cos they are really patience and make sure you dont feel any pain (:
washing and sleeping isn't a prob too. it can probably last you for 4-5 months. If you wana perm, you can too cos it's real human hair. we got a joke about those hair on my head now. imagine if the hair were from the Dead, and every strand is from a different person, i would have like over 700+ "hao peng you" visiting my dreams every night asking their hair back. Luckily, over three days none of my hao peng you came to visit me. Lol!

anyway after that we were so tired we went back to Rach's house to nap before going for service at 7. woooo, im so sad i actually miss the praise. like wahlau! hahaha. well, i hope everyone had a great easter and you know, everytime this year Christians probably re-live the moment that Jesus journey to the cross. (: i did. i think it was really such a big thing that happen in history that it really did change the world around, B.C and A.D, living in grace instead of commandments, able to reach God anytime anywhere.
I dont think i can live in the old testaments time where u will be dead once u break the law man. im so easy at doing something wrong, i could have died a zillion times.
so/ im really glad :D

School's getting scary. let me brief you; 9am-4pm attachment at a child care, 6pm-9pm lessons at RTRC. How scary huh, seriously. soon i will be sleep deprived and what's not. haha anyway be prepared that boring nerdy felicia might come out at the end of august scaring you, resulting from all these mundane routine. haha.
OH! and im all ready to be financially independent, looking for part time jobs everywhere, got offered a few piano jobs and tuition jobs which i think can get me through my monthly expenses, i really want to do it man! spending, saving, investing my own money. haha well, i only know it's not going to be easy but it sure feels exciting. (:

Things at home are not very well;
i need a VERY big heart. (:
my lecturer told the class today, that her retired father plays chess online with global online competitors.
so, thing was, he wins every chess game until when he gets disconnect and comes back, nobody wants to play with him.
then he told my lecturer, sometimes, you need to lose intentionally so that people will want to play with you.
i really learnt that winning everytime is not important.
in my case, even in a argument. no matter how right you are, or how much you know.

thank You for letting me see a new light.

my first try on mobile blogging

2008-03-22T08:29:00.000+08:00

hello guys! So my unlimited gprs plan(aka maxmobile) has finally activated. Let me emphasize finally cos it took some good long 12 days for it to finally work.
everything's quite fun now that the maxmobile is working, msn nearly 24/7, surfing everything and anything to get more things in my phone. such a pity to have limited sites for mobile viewing, i think they should make all website pda friendly! lol.
anyway, watched Horton with georgia and donald yesterday and it was so such a aww,cutesweetfunny movie. haha Katie the small round fluffy is such a heart stealer!
there are still quite a number of movies i want to watch; rule #1, step up2, the orphange.
spiderwick is wicked, juno is witty, 10,000b.c is fun to watch, L was quite sad though. I missed kiterunner and ps i love you. sad!
Shall end off a a picture of Bailey sleeping (:

Motorola Q9h

2008-03-10T17:16:00.008+08:00

Bailey is feeling much better after taking the medicine for about 4 days now.
all the wheezing and chesty sounds were gone! 13 more days till she finish her antibiotics course.
thank you guys for all your concerns and encouragements (:

went to the IT fair at suntec yesterday and got the phone i have been eyeing on at a $200 discount!
Motorola Q9h <-(click) isn't the best pda phone around, but im really very impressed with the keyboard and how easy it is to type quickly. No fuss! The Windows office software were as usual with word, excel, powerpoint but this time they added in pdf reader and also zipped software. No touchpad/screeen; which is a good thing for me as it can be irritating sometimes with its sensitivity or insensitivity. haha. There are the usual Msn, this time they added yahoo!, AIM too. With a transimitter and radio receiver on the pda phone, you can install GPS software in and the Q9 will become a handheld navigation device! With that, you can also have satelite steaming radio, HBO movies smooth streaming videos, music videos, ESPN etc anywhere in the globe.

the microSD expansion slot can accept cards as large as 32GB(when available) and storing large documents, music files, videos etc will be no -oh- problem!
of course, users have to be prepared to face lag when its running on several application at the same time, like every other pda around.

SO!
normal price was $298 with a 2 year plan of powervalue100.
BUT!
at IT fair i can get it at $198 with the same plan
and because i wanted to get the unlimited maxmobile that allows you to connect anytime anywhere, i get another $100 discount signing the plan of $30+ per month.
As there isn't wi-fi on the Motorola Q9, connecting online for long hours without expensive bills coming in will be solved with this!

im very happy, still figuring out on that phone. if you are interested in Motorola Q9 too, i can always email you about the pros and the cons if you are lazy to read all the different reviews on different websites (: and most of all....
i can blog more frequently after my maxmobile is activated!
this is such good news for me to be able to be connected anytime anywhere.

P.S: Maxmobile is available at $30+ (50% the usual price) if you have maxonline at home.

you say..... woot?

2008-03-07T16:00:00.005+08:00

just came back from The Animal Clinic at Sunset Way,
took B there for a check up after 2 weeks of putting her on antibiotics and the sound she's making is so much more worse now.
we found out that all the sounds Bailey is making is actually from her lungs, not her throat and that her chest is very chesty and making a lot of noise and vibration because of lung infection!
i was like...... woot.

i thought it was just kennel cough that is common in dogs that have been in pet shops or maybe just flu. but this was another level of scariness.
she was given a antibiotic jab. she was whining so loud and i could see her shivering after that.
and what's surprising to me was that the pet shop i got her, gave me antibiotics and this act was actually illegal!
the pills are supposed to be taken quarterly but they told me to give her in halves.
too much for a pup like B weighing only 1.67 kg.
this could be a police case, dogs week in week out collapse because of the inappropriate treatment and medication.
it was really devastating to hear that B is suffering so much and yet i didn't know.
over dosage might cause damage to her liver and that it is not helping to clear whatever fluid is in her lungs.
and that the fact she looks healthy and active, i didn't give it much thought till now.
well, people. do not EVER take medicines from pet shops.
as i rarely visit the doctor when i was sick, i presume that B was also alright with home prescribe medicine like i do.
now we all know.

so Bailey is actually home bound for 10 days and closed for visitation until her 3rd vaccination is done.

B, you gotta get well soon.

B for Bailey

2008-03-04T01:16:00.005+08:00

Leroy and I finally gotten Bailey after a hard tough search throughout Singapore.
You wont believe how hard it is to get a FEMALE, RED TOY POODLE UNDER 5 months and ALREADY CLEARED THE SECOND VACCINATION.
very tough i tell you. haha.
disappointed weeks after weeks and then!
it was all a miracle in finding her.
Bailey, we finally found you. haha
after all the time saying, "Bailey where are you."
enjoy the shots.

btw, Bailey is so camera shy.
from what i know from my friend who also owns a dog, his dog is also camera shy. hahaha maybe all dogs are camera shy! lol.

290208

2008-03-03T22:11:00.003+08:00

watched The Leap Years.
Li-lin and Ananda acted really well.
the story was very well portrayed, the awaiting, the story line, the emotions, the pain.
some friends find it okay, touching, but i cried a bucket.
my eyes were so red it seems like its bleeding. haha even after the movie i was still crying in the toilet. it reminds me of some past incidents, those painful, sweet, misunderstood, regretful incidents that i forcefully pushed back into the storeroom of some place which i didnt want to vist and that moment everything exploded and reveals itself.

well, like The Lake House, the "waiting" is always so painfully romantic.
every four years, you ask yourself if that feeling in your heart is for real, with people around you telling you how unreal it is and that u barely know that person.
though times together were short-lived, and the future bleak, you know it's overflowing in your heart and your heart can barely contain what's surging inside.
the process of waiting, who can truly understand besides yourself.
even without contacting for 4 years, that feeling is still so real and explosive.
i love the last quote in the movie.

If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life - oscar wilde
you do what you have to do, love the way you wana love, cause you dont need anyone's approval.

is there someone who can make you forget him?

o chan!

2008-02-18T16:21:00.002+08:00

this is terribly cute!

the person is saying:
o chan - o(the dog's name)
sit
iko ka? - let's go?
ikanai? - dont wana go?
kaisha iku? - let's go to the office?
sanpo iku no? - Let's take a walk?
sanpu o? - take a walk?
go han o taberu? - have you eaten?
dou suru no? - then what should we do?
kaisha i kou ka? - wana go to the office?
gohan o? - eat something?
iranai? - dont want to?
dou su ru? - now what?
kaisha iku no? - how about we go to the office?
dou shitai no? - what do you feel like doing?

by the way, i meant that the dog is terribly cute not the dialogue of cos, it is just...
like when the guy was asking the dog whether she wana go to the office the third time, i was thinking, enough alrdy! just grab her and move it Lol.
well, in anyway, seems that the dog dont understand the owner cos JUST LOOK AT HER FACE! giving the hmm? face everytime he speaks hahahaaha.
classic.
o chan's hairdo is so pretty! fur cut short everywhere except the ears.
Biggg ear hairdo. gonna try that on bailey. HEH HEH HEH

take a break, write an entry

2008-02-13T14:02:00.007+08:00

been doing my writeups and playing this game when i need a break (:
Hot-Dog-Bush
try it out haha.

AND I JUST SAW THIS AS I WAS SURFING AROUND.
http://www.nabaztag.com/en/index.html
ITS THE SMART RABBIT THAT I WANTED TO GET AT PARIS INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT!
oh my goodnessssssssss.
how cool can technology gets.

anyway, nowadays i've been a responsible mummy-to-be to read up all i can about toy poodle and their needs.
the more i read, the more my bailey needs =/
if you happened to know any of these, please let me know!
1. any reputable toy poodle breeder or pet shop
2. information/list of fresh food for dogs
3. cheap grooming places/DIY tips
4. things they might need or should refrain from

greaty appreciated! :D

happy chinese new year

2008-02-12T16:02:00.000+08:00

happy cny everybody!
though im like, late by so many days. haha
but hey, its still 初六, less than fifteen. haha
after my whole stomach, intestinal infection incident,
well, i got better, sometimes churning can happen along with my emotions.
a lot happened but we'll just stick to the most recent ones that i can remember. haha
and...
im getting a dog!
coming 25 feb and im calling it bailey.
haha its a toy poodle and its auburn in color.
i wanted to call it auburn but its so guyish. haha
well so bailey is coming 2 weeks after. so long!
i cant wait.

she's so teddy bear liked right?!
this dog is moochie and that pretty lady is my senior, jeanne, they just make the picture looks splendid don't they? (;
these few days im checking on-line for all the tips i can get on house training, food, grooming etc!seriously hard research work! haha
luckily toy poodle are smart and intuitive,
i guess i need someone like that so i dont end up plucking my hair out. haha!

and cny was okay only, i wore an orchid dress for the first day,
travelling from places to places with a car of my own! you dont see a china women drive with her qi pao everyday. Lol
visited friends' place and my own family's.
the peak of cny would be my starbucks experience with Leroy, Mingsiu and his DSLR.
they were drinking and chilling while i was snapping all that i could. hahaha
then after being the photographer i became the model.
the pictures are just so splendid la. you can see it for yourself.
(though it looked so much better from the camera's screen)

assignments are going to be flooding me until the end of this week;
photographs to be taken,evaluation,writeups.

cant wait till the end of this week! it's gonna be holidays once more. (;

2008-01-07T17:40:00.000+08:00

came back from the polyclinic,
doc says that besides having wind in the intestine i might have infection too.
given new medicine to eat for one week. if not better i might need to go for scope.
i hope i'll get better. haha
i cant eat most of the food now,
no high fiber meals,
no fried and spicy stuff, no gasy drink.
easy soup based/soft food like those baby eat. haha

so long since i feel like crying out loud.

when "you might die" comes into mind

2008-01-07T15:17:00.000+08:00

recently i lost my appetite, got light headed and had sharp pains in my abdomen.
first few days when it happend i tried sleeping early and waking up to a painful stomach thinking it was gastric, went out to eat but to no avail.
went to the doc in the wee hours of sunday and found out that i had intestinal obstruction, wind in my intestine, causing it to squeeze and therefore feeling intense pain.
i dragged a few days to see the doctor as usual.
eating the medicine these few days didnt seem to help.
the pain killer works though, but as soon as the time draws near to the next med intake, i would feel the pain intensify again.
felt helpless not knowing what to do and doing every "maybe this will work" to try to improve the situation.
i heard from my friend whoose friend's dad got it too but at a worser stage that if i dont take care of it properly it might turn into intestinal cancer which i will have to do an operation and my food intake will be very low.
it's worrying.
i'm going for scans later with my mum.
im blogging this so i can let you guys know what's happening,
to know it more in depth
since i've been sleeping and resting more than ever,
waking up to eat and take my medicine only.
explaining in depth might be a chore now. haha
nothing is more important to get my health back now.
thanks for the prayers and gifts, i really appreciate it(:
can't wait for the old usual lively self to be back!
seeyou soon.

..and so it is

2008-01-03T01:18:00.000+08:00

im taking up a new hobby,
that's reading.
haha not that it's new, just that i have never offically think that it's something i would called as my hobby.
owell,i hope i'm not confusing you.
so here's some really good books i have read;
james paterson - sam's letters to jennifer
mitch albom - tuesdays with morrie

both books are very similar; thoughts stirring but yet very calming and comforting. (to quite a great extend)

im planning to read mitch albom's five people you will meet in heaven next.
(: it's gonna be another good read.
btw, if you are thinking what i think you might think,
i'm not turning into a geek.
haha.

well of cos not forgeting,
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! have a great 2008 ahead.
Please save and preserve the earth so there's more years for humans to live.
my polar bears and penguins really need their ice caps for sun tanning.
(;
au revoir! (i miss Paris)

it is called cover art

2007-12-30T05:05:00.001+08:00

mandy moore is one of my all time favourite singer and actress.
i like her down to earth personality, composing skills and ever so clear diction in her singing (:
she did this song that really surprise me. cos her style is never hip hop or r&b.
but she did this. umbrella by rihanna.
a must watch. haha
then there are so many more artists that did other artist's popular songs. new found glory singing cry me a river by jt, natasha bedingfield with maroon 5's this love,
bolwing for soup is really good with fergie's london bridge. hahaha i find them hilarious and very experienced band, the bassist is really good! really good attempt.

umbrella-mandy moore

bowling for soup - london bridge

new found glory - cry me a river

natasha bedingfield - this love

that's all! (:

it's that time of the year again

2007-12-16T18:11:00.000+08:00

christmas is here!
it is only like 16th of dec and i've already received two christmas gifts!
(: great thanks to my aunt and santa ivan&shumei hahaha.

oh and you know, it's that time of the year again.
my annual family genting trips. haha
i'll be gone soon, four days from today.
20-25th dec
i'm going to spend my christmas in m'sia. woot.
hahahha. well at least i think i'm reaching sg in the evening of 25th. that's not so bad.
and this time georgia girl is coming with me.
i hope she still remembers! ahha
besides genting, we'll be going cameron too!
my long awaited, sipping tea, viewing scenery -- love.
and of all time, my camera has to die on me now.
so great. haha
i guess my polariod is my last resort for good pictures.
one film cost $1+! (and i only have twenty =/)

dear Santa,
i want a lomo lc-a for christmas!
hahaha. i've been good all year. (yea right)

or i'll be good next year i promise! haha!

Look at the amzing pictures it can capture!

heh, well before i forget to wish you guys,
here goes

HAPPY BLESSED MERRY CHRISTMAS!

HOHOHO :D

enjoy your holidays friends! ♥

the lake house

2007-12-06T17:40:00.000+08:00

dec 4 was supposed to be the day i leave for the "u-s-say".
when we talked about it in may, it seems to be so far fetched, torturous awaiting.
but then while waiting for the day to come, we slowly lived our separate lives.
this day that we anticipated came and passed us by just two days ago.
i felt weird thinking about this day i waited so long for and then pass me by, with me doing nothing about it.
3 years already.
i always thank God for skype.

***

it is really saddening to know that the person you might marry will not be the person you love most.
because sometimes you yourself dont know what you want.

it's time

2007-11-17T10:34:00.000+08:00

hasn't been really updating this thing.
i know i always say that haha, if you refer to my archives.
there's always this period where i will neglect posting.
well, there's so much things to blog about and it just seems sometimes you dont know whether you should type it out here.
life has been up and down these months.
so many things happened, so many things still happening.
sometimes when you want to make it better, the circumstances was made worse.
then it comes back to square 1.
when i start to look at not only two sides but many sides of the coin.
should i, or should i not.

well, on a brighter note!
we (being georgia, shuling and I) went to celebrate Dawn's 20th birthday!
I went PS to look for her, drove back to her house to change and eat delicious swissotel cake! haha. then saw the delicious cupcakes her cg members made for her. then went sentosa! ate sakae sushi, our faves (:, track around sentosa and its fine sand and spotted many adorable dogs! i still vividly remember the dog that is so cat liked. its so much more cat liked then dog liked. ahaha. then after went to meet georgia and shuling as they funnily use georgia's free pass to get into the sentosa express. hands overlapping each other and all. don't know how to describe but its funny. they continued to watch Songs of the Sea and sat rides at the carlsberg tower and all then ended the night when dawn went on to meet liyan.
dawn i hope you had a great time on your birthday! be happy always (;

.. and above all, i still love You.

KPE; another reason for ERP.

2007-10-17T10:22:00.000+08:00

if you have not heard, KPE is coming up.

With PIE, AYE, KJE, CTE, SLE, BKE, TPE, ECP,

Singapore is opening yet another expressway -- kallang-paya lebar expressway.

It's gonna open on 26th October 2007, just one day before my birthday and i'm going to drive through it as my birthday present for myself. haha

It's gonna link from ECP(East Coast) to Kallang to PIE(sims ave) then all the way it will link to TPE (tampiness).

it's basically linking all the east side areas together!
only half of the expressway is done on the 26th though, so i can only travel from East Coast to PIE.

the other half has to wait for 2008 to come.

But the cool-est thing about this expressway is that it is a tunnel throughout!
how cool is that.

The kallang river was slightly shifted for this tunnel and reshifted back when its done.
andandand, it is said to be the longest tunnel in South East Asia.

My goodness i can't wait. hahaha.

Call me geeky, whatever.

visit the website man, the animation is cool.

LTA has good multimedia team i must say.

http://www.kpeunderground.sg/

hahahhahahaa. KPE!

when the "2" comes

2007-10-15T10:55:00.000+08:00

i'm getting older day by day,
then finally 12 days later i will have a "2" in front of my age.
ain't that so great.
hahahaha.
well, one of my good friends are going into bmt just one day before my birthday!
so i guess i will have celebrations starting 2 days before the actual day,
i guess.
i just know that i will have separate celebrations for different groups of friends or else there will just be awkwardness.
Lol.
still have no idea what to do for my birthday though,
whether is it to hold a party, just a simple chill out cum gathering or a chalet.
well i guess it's too late to have a chalet.
someone suggest something? haha

and guess what my dad just gave me for my birthday?
you're right! a car.

yar right. maybe when i'm 21. Lol
but i wont be in singapore by then anyway.
hahaha so he gave me an o2 atom life limited ed. this year (:
thanks dad!

YAAAAAR

2007-09-03T12:50:00.000+08:00

FACEBOOK IS COOL SHYTE! XD

that's all.

#301

2007-08-24T10:22:00.000+08:00

heyos!
have been waking up everyday at least before 9am.

quite an achievement.

haha

i seriously can't wait for my ballet classes.

i got all my leotard, thighs, shoes, skirt.

wow-ed. haha

so super nice la.

anyway went zoo not long ago with the childcare playgroup kids (3-4y/o)

super tiring but it was fun! hahaha

they are sooooooooo cute. feel like pinching their cheeks everytime i see them Lol!

then after the trip everyone just K-O on the bus. haha.

and it was raining so it was tougher; trying to get everyone in the shelter and not get wet.

didnt take any photos though, what a waste, but not as if i have the time. haha.

just finished my ultra thick assignment yesterday.

more pimples on my face now due to the StrESs. haha

well, finally over.

was having tons of paper all around me, almost literally flooding in it haha.

btw i need someone who has a credit card to help me get some stuff!

if you have can you text me? :D

just some outdated photos before i go (:

xue&me went to the ulu-will we be electrocuted-railway at bt.

it was so fun but my cam died on me halfway. haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS YIIIIIIIII WEI. HEH.

:D :D

the snail that spoke

2007-08-11T02:25:00.000+08:00

blessed 17th gary!
aka mokky aka the snail.

all the creative ideas you can come up with;
every loving thoughts displayed through your actions,
every kind words you spoke,
every caring questions you asked,
every sincere smile that brightens our day,
through and through, because of who you are,
you are loved.

thanks for being here.

that fateful day

2007-08-07T18:48:00.000+08:00

wednesday 010807,
caregroup@esplanade

You're everywhere

2007-08-07T17:55:00.000+08:00

i was driving behind an ambulance and saw a symbol on both side of its back doors.
i think all of you have seen it before;
but i guess little know about this (image below)

To Greek mythology, it is knowned to be a healing symbol;
The god of medicine.
There's a similar symbol that is mentioned in the Bible, in Numbers 21:4–9. "Attacked by a plague of snakes in the wilderness, Moses holds up a serpent coiled around a staff, both made from bronze, so that the Israelites might recover from the bites."

i find it amazing how God can leave his clues anywhere, everywhere.
no?

the spacious place

2007-08-03T00:51:00.000+08:00

i just created a new blog to jot all my learnings and thoughts down.
i think it's so cool.
if you want to read it, pay me a penny for my thoughts!
give me a penny first. haha

nah,
its under user info->contacts(click it)->the spacious place

(:

Little Skool House On The Hill

2007-07-31T15:31:00.000+08:00

just knew i'm going to be posted to Little Skool House at Singapore General Hospital for attachment! haha.

i'm quite thankful that i'm placed in a private center for my attachment! :D
i think it would be fun. at least it's gonna be different from the usual NTUC childcare centers. Karryn, Zhige i need tips! Lol.
now, the only thing i pray hard is that i get colleagues that are professional and i could learn lots from them!
at least when my practicum teacher comes to mark me i could have gain much!
i really dont want to destroy that nice looking As on my report slips now.
7 aug, d day.

anyway my friends have been commenting that after i took this course i talk a lot about how we should treat children right. Lol. some kind of a patriot to kids huh. Lol. i guess i just realised a lot about kids that makes me go "oh ya huh".
just like everything has its time and season, kids too, have their own time of maturing. (physically, intellectually, emotionally and socially) chim huh.
now i can be more tolerent to kids because whatever irritating things they've done, they do now know any other ways to express it.
anyhow, it's been amazing. (:

august is here! a month of purification starts.

really want to improve on more things now that my studies are on track.

family, ministry, friends, health.

praying, fasting, sowing, shepherdings.

i shall do it well.

when joy&passion overtakes commandments.

the spacious place Your promise me isn't far away. (:

You can do it!

do things without being told.

take my test :D

2007-07-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

it doesnt matter how much you score.
take it just for fun! :D

i counted my blessings!

2007-07-09T18:41:00.000+08:00

TO: ALL MY GOOD FRIENDS.
You know who y'all are without a doubt,
thanks for the ever so encouraging words that build or mend my gloomy days,
thanks for your gracious hearts that accept&forgive my inconsiderate words/actions,
thanks for the little things yall do that speaks more than words,
thanks for the times yall stood beside me (loudly&silently), supporting me,
thanks for all your languages of love(quality time, words of affirmation, acts of service, gifts, physical touch(even slapping my arm so hard)),
thanks for being so concerned about what i'm concerned about, (sometimes even more concerned than me, haha)
thanks for giving me hope when i lost sight of it.

...above all, thanks for loving me for who i am!
you have been a great friend.
i hope i had been one to you too(:
just remember that our hearts are always in sync no matter where we are.

Yours Faithfully,
Felicia.

randomly enough,
i love photoshop tools.
... and really loving california golden sunset kind of lightings.

my own ultimate test

2007-07-09T18:17:00.000+08:00

i was tested right after saturday's sermon; the ultimate test.
had the 2 lousiest days of my life;
1 losing my handphone and going around to look for it
2 waking up early to no avail of getting my assignment done in time (disappointments again&again&again)
3 driving all around tired(lost most of the time)
4 got screamed and shouted at early in the morning by my great loving mother
5 finally sick to end off the day.

if ya know me, i was never (nevernevernever) stressed about studies.
basically stress doesnt get to me, if it does, it would be once every decade, MAX-ed.
BUT, being so super SERIOUS about getting that scholarship of mine, i'm now super, duper, ultra, (enormously?) stressed about my upcoming assignment! i want to do really well for it but its dued on wed and i have yet to find a age 3-4 y/o child to observe. G-R-E-A-T.
today was the draft preview and i'm sick. EVEN GREATER.
ha, i'm in need of prayers. Please do pray for me!
(edit)Praise God! i just found a child to finish up my assignment! i really hope everything goes well from now on. Don't stop praying for me. ManyManyManyThanks. :D(/edited)

DEAR POWDERFUL GOD, (powerful, jk)
I wana rejoiced in all circumstances!
You reminded me the power of the mind, the wickedness of negative feelings and made me relearned how decisions can ruin/shaped my day.
no matter how bad the circumstances is, i want to grow out of it.
thank You, MR. JC.
Note to everybody including myself: Everyone is fighting a battle of its own everyday. You are not the only one facing obstacles and challenges okay! Be kind in your actions and words. You either break or build someone so, be wise! The world does not only revolve around you. XieXie.

lights, camera, action!

2007-07-07T13:50:00.000+08:00

you may need to activate your activeX to view the video.
click on the pop up to run activeX.

advertisments are so cool sometimes.
we should have jesus' advertisments!
haha. (:

live earth!

2007-07-04T12:56:00.000+08:00

global warming is staring at us in the face and we ignoring it.

yesterday when i was crossing the road, the wind was blowing rather harshly and the skies were really gloomy. reminds me so much of the movie of "the ends of the world"; that extreme weathers.

"the earth is ours and we really need to do something about it", that's what others think.
but we're thinking something more. to have more time to reach out to those that do not know the good news yet.
i'm excited about the second coming yet i really want to have people, as much as possible, to be with us after our lifetime on earth.

"live earth!" is coming on channel 5 this friday. watch it, feel it, "carry the burden". haha.
and to support, wear green that day!

yesterday went for Immanuel again and realised my beautician is a christian. it's really very cool to know amazing amount of Singaporeans are really getting to know Jesus. and not ashamed of it.

was thinking about imperfection today at starbucks while having my cool hot choc.

is imperfection an excuse for you to get away with your mistakes or

something that motivates you to improve?

it does holds your growth back if you're so bothered about how bad you feel.

the week preview

2007-06-30T15:08:00.000+08:00

to xueping on your 260607 post;
ohmytian durians! hahaha, TY in between the camera bag handle is super duper arty. the background was blur and its like the center of attraction, giving such a nostalgic feeling. Lol. super nice. hahaha, karryn "fencing" TY was such a cute sight! such an arty post, the first photo was simply accidently stunning. haha. andand! my tama gave birth to a small girl. so cute! show you later. Lol.
(livejournal was under maintenance when i finished typing and i didnt want to lose the comment so i'll just post it here k. haha.)

***

i went to queue for donuts with dawn on tuesday. haha never expect i would do that actually, not very long, just 2hrs. Lol. considered the fastest to all the durations i heard. we bought like 48 donuts. all given out by wednesday afternoon. Lol.
it's more of a joy to give than to eat by myself. makes me happier.
anyway this week has been quite fun, had free facials at Immanuel beauty school with dawn and rach, and, i do love having nel&caleb at caregroup(:
also enjoyed spending time with clarie at ngeeann for a short while.
so much hanging out since so long!
helped at vinc's restaurant, it was so fun being the cashier! they had a function and i saw my secondary friend and then mingxiu! such coincidence in such an ulu place. Lol. it happened to be a NYP graduates dinners before they set off to aussie. and my secondary school friend is one of the organizer. everything's quite cool. :D

attachment is starting soon and i need to have a full body checkup. there's a section where u will need to draw blood out for blood test.
ohmytian, this is ulber scary can.

time for service! i cannn't wait.
God please speak to me. i really need your rhema word.
just one word is better than a thousand, million, billion, trillion words from anyone.

draw me close to you,
don't withdraw Your hand from me.

meandYou

2007-06-27T01:49:00.003+08:00

me and You
Verse 1
Like a seed Your love falls down,
Rooted firmly in the ground; (so deep)
Planted in my heart.

Verse 2
Living water floods my soul,
Your love grew more and more; (it blooms)
Like a flower it blooms.

Pre chrous
The sun came in the tears washed out,
Your hand reached out and fix me up.
The cloud shelters the wind blows,
Never seen but always felt.

Chrous
Remain in me and I in You.
Never will I leave, never will You forsake me.
By your strength and not my own.
Your grace is sufficient for me.

(You and me; meant to be.
You and me, together.)

Lyrics: Felicia
Music: Vincent

back in action, yo.

2007-06-25T00:40:00.000+08:00

im back!
came back to singapore on thursday night.

been really busy catching up on things before i managed to find such an early timing to blog.

lol, and school's starting tomorrow! and i'm guessing my attachment is starting the week after next.

lol, super fast right. it's like i just started school in may, lol.

and my new found good friend claire aka toottoot chan asked me to bring her to thread her brows tomorrow! quite excited to see how it's done. not my first time, to thread just never get to see how it is done before. Lol.

i just realised my two good'old friends are transferring!
dawn and sam y'all heartless creatures. Lol. just kidding. we came a long way man, friendships never dies no matter where y'all go. loves. impact everywhere your feet set feet on. one life too short to waste any time on emotions/anything else that's unworthy. (;

colin bang'd his head and had stiches! reminded me so much of the stiches i had on my forehead too when i was young, i "dyed" my mum's whole shirt red and she fainted leaving my dad to bring us both to the hospital. i still remember the thread was blue and my mum is still "sleeping" after i'm done. Lol. and definitely cannot forgot the nurse that convinced me that alcohol antiseptic will not be even a tad bit painful on my wound. of course if you are smarter than me you would know it's a lie! haha.

shall post the pictures i promised,

@genting! went with vincent and my family, malaysian vincent never been to genting! see how excited he was. and notice the big contrast between us and him, our "doh, so interesting meh" face. hahahaha.

genting

Mr V and me with the outdoor theme park as background

us! vinc me qiuyi zhenyi (clockwise)

me and my fluffy bag; just trying to be funny (x

fly! a group of dancers and stunner(people who do stuns) performing at genting pavilion!

the whole of genting

the day for outdoor theme park

we are about to board the viking!

last smile before you never get smile again

energizer is my long lost friend

that guy behind is not someone we know. haha!

why that disgusted look vinc! lol.

swings going round and round, high up in the air. definitely slower and less scary than the one at euro fun fair! lol. kids friendly, this one.

i can drive this 8 wheel car.

waiting for the mine train roller coaster in the gold mine tunnel

here the train comes, choo choo.

it's getting really foggy.

look at my candy floss! it's so "slim"! lol, i said i wanted pork floss when i saw a lady holding the candy floss. my cousin laugh like mad can.

whipped cream on coffee bean pure choc ice blended is the cream to my cake.

we had paris-styled 2hr breakfast; cold air, hot choc, hot milk tea, bagel, ciapatta and nice scenery.

birds are cold and went indoor, sat on the table beside this poor guy who tried to ignore it and act normal with everyone looking at him.

my new polariod camera! my love and craving for many years!

vincent testing out the very first piece of film and me infont of my genting buddy, the para machine.

on our way home, looking back.

finally, v, me and my sleeping beauty mum.

so glad you came with us vinc! it made our trip more enjoyable(:

something random to end off,
i really love ne-yo songs, maybe i should buy his cd. Lol.

[singing] and it's all because of youuu [/singing]

serenity;

2007-06-17T00:38:00.001+08:00

hi all (:
so many things to update after such a long break.

its holidays now! enjoying it, loving it. (:
shall post some pictures soon!
gonna go off to genting tmr, till thurs.
so when i come back i will post the pictures all together!
((:
i think the trip came at the right time.
need a break to spend real quality time with God and build my barn well before i can collect and retain the harvest.

all my friends who are reading this,

take care! seeya when i seeya.
haha (:

a day at one fullerton

2007-06-05T20:49:00.000+08:00

sick!
and exam tomorrow.

sleeping and waking up at 6am to study the remaining.
spend some time with gary and kokleng this afternoon studying at one fullerton starbucks!
keep things short,
great sea scenery
power napping
sheik haikel coffee drinking
parachuting activites
sunset watching
laptop playing; video&songs kpo-ing
lighting bolting
and of cos,
notes-a-writing.

it was fun! great day.

my MIGHTY God, heal my throat and nose!

my deepest desire

2007-06-03T04:55:00.000+08:00

hands that hold the heavens,

hold my heart tonight.

light pierce through my darkness,

glorious light.

words of life eternal,

heal my broken soul.

to whom will i go?

there's no one else but You alone.

enough said.

a "comeback"

2007-05-29T15:42:00.000+08:00

stared at the blank entry page, *a long pause*.
oh ya.
house party was great! spent $118 on all the food, had three different rooms with different atmosphere's.
1 was the majong room with all the loudd people, ahaha.
2 was the living area with all the slack people playing poker,3 was my room, with all the "ITsavvy" ppl playing games, watching youtube, chilling out.
haha it was really a fun night.
we even decorate the rooms with candles, disco ball, post-its with all the messages, food labels, and even a floor plan. haha its crazy.
thanks those we helped so much for the help-out. really helped a lot!
from a large kitchen table full of uncooked food to 2 rooms full of food.
and from that, to good old clean rooms!
special thanks to vinc man, reached at 12 to help till 10, (:
my maid seriously love you! lol.

went to georgia's dance school yesterday!
i really love dancing, its not a sudden thing. it started ever since secondary school but i have so many things to do, ministry, piano, jap, gym, so i dropped it.
but now, i have nothing except ministry so i'm going to take my dance like finallyyyy.
i LOVE dance! that energy surges through you when u see how pro dance, at least surge through me! lol.
went for georgia street jazz to look see look see, its really cool la can.
and they are dancing to the steps choreographed for the song step up!
and just so you know, i watched "step up" 5 times consecutively.
i'm just so in love with all the hiphop&jazz.
i love jazz dance and jazz music.such a coincidence.
weird why they are both called jazz cos the steps and music dont really go together. haha
was bored and did this.
been playing with photoshop a lot these days,
shrek3's coming!
$2 for children charity for shrek hairband. please support! haha.

LETS PLAY CHINESE!

2007-05-13T17:49:00.000+08:00

rachelle helped me "repaired" my language bar!!
now i can type chinese!!
this is so funnn! haha
i was stratching head pulling hair and then it was done!
so cool now.
kokleng and rach are like trying to help me at the same time. hahaha
look at this;
GABBY - I wan to overcome it!!!!!!! says:
我是华人
----------------------------------
Mika Nakashima ga daisuki~!!! Vivienne Westwood no mono ga Daisuki~!!! Visual Kei ga Daisuki~!!! says:
我叫陈思吟
你好
你好
哈哈哈哈哈
我听起来好笨喔
拉拉拉

-.-""""""""" we are already mad.
we take ages to type a proper sentence! but it was so satifying when it is out! hahaha.
when we switch back to english it was like we were machine guns again. ahha.

hahahah.
why does everyone type 我叫(insert name here) first.
haha and,
you probably know haha is 哈哈
but,
lol is 咯咯.
don't believe? try it. haha!

this is how you can fix your language bar for people might be struggling like me;)
1. go to your control panel, look for regional and language icon, open it.
2. click the language tabs, tick the 2 boxes you see.
3. click details and add chinese(prc) with ime 3.0 thingy.
4. set it as your default input language.
5. click apply, ok, apply, ok.
6. now you see your language bar on your taskbar. switch between eng and chinese until you see a 中.
and its done! (;
if it still does not work; reboot your com.
(reboot here can also mean restart) if you already know, i'm just being funny.
if it still still does not work; call rachelle. her number is toll free.
LOL.

for entertainment purpose.

2007-05-13T16:35:00.000+08:00

some people have been asking why i
wear socks take pictures,
play posing games,
change my msn,
email address,
write short lullabies,
changing languages and
play paint;
solely for entertainment purpose!

this is so funny;
i was asking gary how to type chinese and this is what is turns out to be,,,
×࡬ × MoKky^ ™ ¿ × says:
我的名热斌仁。。。
Felicia here, thanks for the add. you can delete the previous account(: says:
-.- thanks
not helping
haha
×࡬ × MoKky^ ™ ¿ × says:
I use chinese prc
Felicia here, thanks for the add. you can delete the previous account(: says:
country?
×࡬ × MoKky^ ™ ¿ × says:
Prc..
Felicia here, thanks for the add. you can delete the previous account(: says:
simplified right us keyboard right
me too but no chinese
words will come out when i type
i only can type jap
×࡬ × MoKky^ ™ ¿ × says:
hmm...
lol
then type english lar why u want chinese!
Felicia here, thanks for the add. you can delete the previous account(: says:
おねがいいいいいい。。。。
pleaseeeee.
×࡬ × MoKky^ ™ ¿ × says:
我不会帮你了...
Felicia here, thanks for the add. you can delete the previous account(: says:
u wont help me alrdy?! (im like started laughing quite seriously already, i knew he meant i don't know how to help you alrdy. but the way he phrase it.. lol)
:( so sad.
×࡬ × MoKky^ ™ ¿ × says:
很难.... 我不明白
Felicia here, thanks for the add. you can delete the previous account(: says:
hahahaha.
×࡬ × MoKky^ ™ ¿ × says:
你可以带你的田脑来见我吗?
lol..
Bring ur laptop meet me and i try la... or u come my house i show you,
eh i going see doc liao
bb
Felicia here, thanks for the add. you can delete the previous account(: says:
LOLOL
not tian nao is DIAN nao
LOLOLOL!!!!
field brain. LOLLLLL!!!

lol,
gary ah gary.
and get well soon :D

cg 090507

2007-05-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

today cg was so short, had a combined one with np2!(:
just welcome, games, praise&worship, holycomm, challenge to apply cg covenants and annoucement then done. haha. forgot testimonial so tienyeh share during dinner with the group after cg haha. im happy he came back stronger and understand why he do what he do now.
i really like chulee's bulletin. everyone unique by its own, like how God created everyone of us and each hand written. its so creative! zai la, creative trophy for you man. also thank God for you for handwritten 15 pieces of bulletin. woah! 15.
went to some taiwanese store at bukit timah plaza to eat beef noodle. wow nice. and the service there like 5 star hotel lo can. the boss is super observant, caring and sensitive. plus funny. great combination of chracter. hahah. can go far man this kind of people.
its really great sharing life with the group.
straight application from the challenge in cg. haha,
said many heart felt thoughts during p&w to God.
digging up the thing that i left in the deep deep corner of my heart.
in Your hands, i commit again.

God built me strong so i can face this now.

a part or apart.

2007-05-07T17:48:00.000+08:00

play me.

heart of mine, be still
u can play with fire, but u'll get the bill.
dont let him know,
dont let him know that you love him
oh dont be a fool, dont be blind,
heart of mine.

heart of mine, go back home.
you got no reason to wander, no reason to roam.
dont let him see,
oh dont let him see that you need him
dont push yourself over the line,
heart of mine.

heart of mine go back where you'd been.
the only trouble with you is if you let him in.
dont it him hear, dont let hear where you going
oh im tired of ties that bind,
heart of mine.

heart of mine,
so malicious and so full of guile.
i give you an inch, and you take a mile.
dont let yourself fall,
dont let yourself stumble
oh do the time, don't do the crime
heart of mine.

i love norah jones' songs.
this song just re-emphasize the importance of being focus, on the main thing.
there's something in the deep, deep corner of my heart. left on-hold.
you may think u are forgotten but i revisited you a moment ago, as i always do.
i will come back, just not soon.
------

the sun rises and the sun sets,
the moon take its shift and then the sun comes out again.
your world is moving fast but mine stood so still.
we are in such different worlds,
in a different dimension.
i scretched my hands and touched only a bloch of reverie i created.
i waved it away and i saw you, so far away.
choosing the best clock frames, hands and axles, moving on,
but im still holding my spoilt-stopped clock.

gary bought 24 donuts from donuts factory and queued for 150mins.
and he got 6 for me to share with my family when i just said i want donut!
so sweet and thoughtful, thanks man!!
now i have 6 i can share! :DD

painter song

2007-05-03T16:26:00.000+08:00

if i was a painter
i would paint my reverie
if that's the only way for you to be with me

we'd be there together
just like we used to be
underneath the swirling skies for all to see

and i dreaming of a place where i can see your face
and i think my brush would take me there but only..

if i were a painter and could paint a memory
i'd climb inside the swirling skies to be with you
i'd climb inside the skies to be with you

--this is such a song i can indulge in.
i build my room a sound system with two speakers on my bed frame and cd rack just beside my bed with all the 5 most favourite cds playing.
you know, You first created music when u first spoke in Genesis.

orientation; university of wheelock

2007-05-03T15:58:00.000+08:00

went for orientation yesterday. really felt very freshman; heart pumping, didn't know what to expect. will i have a 40 y/o classmate? hahaha. before that i had shepherding with nel so it calmed me down a little.

forward message received from +6593399***;
Just finish orientation! And it was really unexpected. No 40 years old classmate but girls school man. All girls. Hahaha and my schedule quite slack! Will have some days have to go centers to oberserve kids play but mostly half day only. Studying what i love and able to do ministry! Praise GOD! Haha.

i sent these to all NP1 and my mum.
my mum sent back; treasure this chance. Thank you God. -- so sweet right.
nel replied dont torture the kids. hahaha. -wack-
jose said haha you will enjoy "girl sch" and adapt to it slowly! i replied i will impact not adapt! hehs. thanks girl. u reminded me.
vinc and kl both said happy for me. thanks bros.

anyway rach & yuling are sick i pray they get better. rach eyes swollen because of allergy to panadol. aiyoyo. fast recovery, amen!

after orientation went shopping alone! it was fun though. haha bought SO MANY things.
1black dress
1 jean half jacket
2 books
3 norah jones cd
1 avril lastest cd
1 surprise.
i was such a happy girl yesterday. my bag was literally my shopping cart.
so good to use the money i work hard for!
now its time to tithe and save. (;
i love JESUS.

yellow cold play

2007-04-30T01:27:00.000+08:00

And you know,
For you I'd bleed myself dry,
For you I'd bleed myself dry.
It's true,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

friday certainly de fave day

2007-04-28T01:18:00.000+08:00

today was such a fruitful day! (yesterday i mean)
went to NP in the morning to get our direct invitation done and now NP1 has 5 from zero kosong confirmed visitors coming for UG2! i say God is altogether good and its not a lie man! if you believe and be proactive nothing is impossible for me and my God! anyway let's continue our great adventure today.

After direct invitation for UG2, (edit)joke called me telling me he ends at 5 when i saw the most jaw dropping thing of my life! hahah, i saw yuling&her friend!(i forgot her name=x and not that they look hideous or stunning LOL but much missed)we hugged and say our HOW ARE YOUs! and left with hur, really must meet up someday kind of feeling. (/edit)haha then all the npians eat our late lunch cum early dinner. haha then after fellowshipping and much comic drawing by vincent and rachelle, we made way to J8 so i can cut my boldest haircut of my lifetime! hahaha. don't know if they are kpo or what la, but vincent joke rach was with me. i really appreciated the support btw, so we went to this salon at level 2 and rach showed the hairstylist the hair cut i wanted to cut! and the hairstylist was like stunned! anime?! hahaha. its like a comic hairstyle rach and vinc drew! haha. and the hairstylist was like saying it was impossible to know how to cut the inside of the hair just form a drawing. and everyone in the salon is looking at us wondering what we are up to. lol.
After looking for the right haircut from hairstyles books and pieceing the fringe, side and back pictures together for the hairstylist, he gave some really constructive feedbacks about my face not suitable for my "ideal" hairstyle. hahaha. i appreciate his honesty and really find it true that my hair should not be any shorter, surpassing my chin! (cos i have really fine hair which in every case flattens and literally becomes no hair when my hair gets too short which indirectly make my face look fat!haha then finally, i choose the mowhak! HAHA nah jk, i chose victoria beckham hairstyle. the one that is short at the back and slope to the front so i can get a gd length of my sides and a short hairstyle for my back! the real ideal! haha. i know you are excited to see how it is like. its really nice and special i think! cut it all away!
then i treated all of them coffee bean cos my haircut allowance was left with quite a lot of change. and we just chill talk and enjoy each other company! coolling night.
then i saw this guy selling the fiber lighting thingy just outside the mrt! and its like so nice and cheap. like 3 for $10. i rushed over with vinc following behind and we together bought 3. haha.
when we went back coffeebean, all of us was so amazed by how the light was refracted all the way through the fiber to its ends. its so mesmerizing man! haha. we were staring at it with people looking at our silly acts again. ha! then rach kop-ed one home for a few days free entertainment. ahaha.

what enjoyable day; surpassing the superfical into the core of the hearts. :D

doyouremember

2007-04-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

Remember we'd be up all nightTalking 'til the morning light, yeahLike the way it used to beThose simple daysJust you and me, mmmmI think baby I knowWhat's on your mindCuz you look like you'veGot something to sayI may not say those words anymoreBut maybe it just ain't my wayYou ask me do I love you butDo you rememberWhy I walked on water for youDo you rememberMy first steps on the moonHave you ever wondered whyI gave three wishes to youYou asked the questionBut the answer liesIn you, in youThe answer lies in youRemember we used to laugh and sayNo one else could get in our wayAnd there were timesWhen you would cryAnd came knockingOn my doorAnd I was thereTo shelter your painI think baby you shouldGet that off your mindMake it seem likeA brighter dayI may not say those words anymoreBut maybe I can make it my wayYou ask me do I love you butDo you rememberWhy I walked on water for youDo you rememberMy first steps on the moonHave you ever wondered whyI gave three wishes to youYou asked the questionBut the answer liesIn you, in youThe answer lies in youThe answer girlLies within your heartTake a look insideYou ask me do I love you butDo you rememberWhy I walked on water for youDo you rememberMy first steps on the moonHave you ever wondered whyI gave three wishes to youYou asked the questionBut the answer liesIn you, in youThe answer lies in youIn you, in youThe answer lies in youIn you, in youThe answer lies in youIn you, in youThe answer lies in you, yeah

You're a God that is working and alive. Reaching to us instead of us reaching to You.

2007-04-26T19:42:00.000+08:00

God you are so good.
Even when i dont understand and just obey,
you showed me to a understanding and made me see it was all worth it.
I was a fool to think i do not what the best you have for me,
i think i know what's the best,
i was so throughoutly wrong!
The best you have for me is even bigger, better than my heart's desire!
it is along and not away from what i want!
Father you are altogether good.
really, ALTOGETHER good.

I thank You for planning two empty seats for the uncle who carried a heavy luggage with him.
Everything you planned is good, amen.

almost over you

2007-04-25T01:47:00.000+08:00

I saw an old friend of ours today

She asked about you, I didn't quite know what to say

Heard you've been making your rounds 'round here

While I've been trying to make tears disappear

Now I'm almost over you, I've almost shook these blues

So when you come back around after painting the town

You'll see I'm almost over you

You're such a sly one with your cold, cold heart

Maybe leavin' came easy, but it tore me apart

Time heals all wounds they say and I should know

'Cause it seems like forever, but I'm lettin' you go

I can forgive you and soon I'll forget all my shattered dreams

Although you left me with nothing to show, full of misery

When you come back around after painting the town

You'll see I'm almost over you

this is such an amazing song.

He wants me there huh?

2007-04-23T19:34:00.000+08:00

got my acceptance from rtrc just today.
will start school real soon on 14 may and orientation is on 2nd may, real fast.
i feel like freshman all over again. haha but guess school term wont be long. i will graduate in 31st aug 2008. thats like 1yr 3 months to graduation. everything's so fast.
i've really mixed feelings about this. after graduation i will be flying over to US to finish up my degree. 4 years. that's the only thing that's not so fast huh. haha.
will see how things goes.

Jesus take the wheel.

2007-04-22T12:15:00.000+08:00

chit lomawabu?

jema awbe.

isshokenme o agete dekinai, gomen.

ja,

mata.

all the heavens

2007-04-22T11:23:00.000+08:00

holy holy are You Lord,
the whole earth is filled with Your glory.
let the nations rise to give,
honour and praise to Your name.

let Your face,
shine on us
and the world will know You live.

all the heavens shout Your praise,
beautiful is our God, the universe will sing,
Hallelujah, to You our King.

sweet surrender.

cg 180407

2007-04-19T13:15:00.000+08:00

yesterday caregroup was so fulfilling i think.
welcome and apologetic sessions were all well involved with everyone putting their thoughts in!
it's so cool to debate and diminished grey areas.
helps sharpen our minds!
then for praise and worship we were singing "the more i get to know you" with just our voices.
shows that we can just worship God even while we are walking. Praising all of His goodness!
teaching was really short, put in a lot of heart felt thoughts and challenge everyone to claim "use me" (the two most powerful words in ministry) in a very personal way.
everyone shared their thoughts and its really awesome we can learn extra from people's revelations; so much more after what we already learnt.
the depth of Your word is amazing, mr. JC
after that yiwei fiona qiulian jose jieying rach mingk joke and me went kap.
we were all sandwiched in the car. imaging 9 people in a car. HOW MAN.
nothing is impossible for npians. haha. mingk&joke squeeze the front seat; fiona was sitting on qiulian's lap and the rest just sitting "in-out-in-out". so funny. we can feel the car so heavy not able to climb up and rolling down fast the steep slopes of ngee ann.
hilarious.
ended with sending the east group back and got lost at woodlands after dropping mingk.
reached home at an owl time of 0000.
appreciate jieying for taking the extra effort to stay out late with us.
i so love fellowship!
(;

my good day is not going to be ruined.

sing of your ♥ forever

2007-04-18T08:59:00.000+08:00

the more i get to know You
the more i fall in ♥
the more i sing Your praises
the more i fall in ♥

with you my Jesus, my Jesus
i'm falling in ♥ again
with you my Jesus, my Jesus
i'm falling in ♥ again
with You my Lord

congratualtions&celebration

2007-04-17T18:57:00.000+08:00

congratulations to rachelle for getting into her dream course! :DD
praise You, Lord.

she was shouting at me one moment and crying to me another moment;
you're always extreme like that.
congrads, mehmeh.

2007-04-17T16:17:00.000+08:00

help.

to whom will i go, there's no one else but You alone.

miscellaneous

2007-04-16T15:54:00.000+08:00

1st day of school in np!
woke up at 0715 intentionally to sms all a happy first day at school, haha.
a smile in the morning makes the rest of the day easier to go through.
when u guys are reading this, i hope that you've already had a fruitful day!
---

been so long since i've updated. the mind goes blank whenever i reached the posting entry page. haha, guess too much feelings but too limited words to describe or just flooded with thoughts and not know what to start with first.
anyhow,
Easter ESS was really good, compared to what i thought would be just a normal saturday service. God never fail to bring me closer to Him year by year; during the whole Easter week, i experience what you call the magnificent of God's power. Look at the destruction of a tsunami; 9-11 incident, volcanoes eruption, hurricanes or tornadoes. God's power is a billion times or trillion times more powerful than that. the effect is just simply.. mind-blowing. Watched the reaping and saw the ten plagues of moses generation in a visual cycle. only when you see or imaging the image you will know. if God want to do something to this earth, there's no way the earth can escape. same goes for humans. We need to know just how small we are. please be humbled cos you are so damn limited and small. (if i have to use damn to make it clearer). but yet again if God wants to bless and he does, the power that raised Jesus from death will be with you and nothing can stop him as well. always in full ultimate control -- that's our God.
do you know the power of the one who made the heavens and the earth; the vast galaxy?
the one who loves you.
Nicole Nordeman's "Why" never fail to bring me to tears; that gracious, unfailing, patient, perfect love.
to think that the universe could not withold your glory; you choose to live in me!

andandand..
tuesday is ben&jerry's free cone day!
-slurps-

a note;
do your best in helping people,

doesn't matter if they get to see all the good views or get all the good things.
teaching them to fish and not give them the fish.
in the process, understand you cannot understand everyone fully because you are not God -- their creator,
and never seek others to understand you but instead seek to understand others;
just like Jesus, your heavenly Father who shows selflessness.
also always know that you cannot please everyone while you're at it.
give yourself a breather and know your limits.
don't be too hard on yourself cos you're not indebted to any.
pioritize and use the time you have well to do well in your responsibilities and have good periods of rest to go further.

do your best; please Him not man.

always keep the main thing the main thing.

warning: high bandwidth

2007-03-13T16:34:00.000+08:00

warning: high bandwidth post

realised that i've been missing lots of posts on the important events in my life.
shall update now before the whole series of camp; evo retreat, matthew cg, poly/di.
we are going tenting at east coast! i cant wait. gonna get the 4 men tent by this fridayyy!
gleeful.
shall let the pictures do the talking.
lets start with the mass invasion of my lil boyish newphew on cny-- ethan wong.

finally...

time to go for prayermeet at church office!
jean's departure: i'll be back! (;

090307

2007-03-09T11:45:00.000+08:00

coporate prayer meeting later!
woohoo.
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holidays

2007-02-26T15:08:00.000+08:00

how great is it to spend afternoons sipping english breakfast and writing thoughts down.

ahhhh, holidayys.

been watching quite a few good movie in this cny period; Seducing Mr. Perfect, Norbit, The Pursuit of Happyness and The Letters of Iwo Jima.

all are good movies. please catch them asap! (: sneaks are up on weekends!

just finished my lunch. sure am bloated. bandito, large colesaw, medium wipped potato, pineapple dessert pie and a large popcorn chicken. all in all $16.15. all because of a mininum spending on $12 for kfc delivery. be warned. you might end up eating and puking consecutively. ahaha.

only awhile after the cny craze and im sensing big workload drawing near.

i am always right about this kind of thing. hahaha.

already has so many things to plan for! thrilled.

AND AND

can't wait for poly/di camp! really exciteddd.

just something random, thinking of re-piercing the hole on the arc of my right ear.

make sure it dont close this time round.

asked nel and has the green light. am tempted! haha.

happy holidays!

emotions are the side dishes, dun treat it as your main course.

cny(:

2007-02-18T14:07:00.000+08:00

so many things to say!
i've finally self-declared graduated from np! ((:
.. until i get my results then i can officially say byee. haha.
so fast la. the first day at np seems like only few months ago.
hahah the dilemma of leaving school is becoming stronger and stronger;
excited to spend all my time in ministry yet missing the classroom sessions with my class.
anywayy, will be meeting my going-to-be ex-classmates real soonn.
so no fret.

ahhh really excited about the longggg holidays!
and happy chinese new year yall (:
wish everybody to be in pink health alwayys.
wow and i really thank God for Singapore to have good transport system and dedicated bus drivers.
not only did some just fulfill their obligations but when they are willing to fulfill their obligation and work on first day of chinese new year so that more other people benefit from it.
bus drivers in holland go on strike as and when they like leaving passengers waiting at the bus stop for hours hoping the strike would stop so they could just buy their groceries.
if Singapore bus drivers were to be on strike chinese new year,
people without their own transport will not be in their whole chinese new year momentum.

it's just heart warming to see that people find meaning in what they do.
house visitation anyoneee?
my house's open.

mid exams entry

2007-02-13T18:50:00.000+08:00

took a little breather from exams and changed my blog skin (:

soon it will be my one month-versary from the day i got my driving license. i can't believe i've been driving for one month already! sure is fast. more to come. hawhaw.
it's a new experience to be able to drive people around.
you hear screams and shouts, people reaffirming their salvation prayer and people congratulating others when they get off safely. HAHA. drama.
but of all the faithless comments, there is bound to have someone to say, "it's so cool to have a friend who drives."
aww.

been making good use of my ability to drive. just last saturday i send two groups of churchmates home.
the east people; jean, huishi, josephine, zejun and the west people; fiona, joanne, karryn, yiwei.
haha its petrol taxing but its fun filling.
i discovered the east people are really loudddd. ahahaha. they talked non-stop from town back home. okay la, it was actually that the west people are quiet. hahaha. it was great fellowship no matter loud or soft. get to see a glimsp of heaven where we were all be singing praise and worship songs, sharing our past with each other, how we miss each other when we were in the same caregroup and last but not least carrying the cross and running the race together! it's so comforting to know everyone is doing and loving the same God together. got to know from one sister that she has 4 siblings and that means her family has 7 people in total! woah. sounds like my mother generation. hahaha.
i enjoyed your company people!

OH YAR.
before that at dinner table we were exchanging valentine gifts as a np unit at marche. you get all kinds of funny gifts when you have exchange gift party. we have someone who give pokemon shooter CAN. hahaha. we were polling and everyone was chanting not pokemon not pokemon. it was hilarious la. ahha, then finally guess who got it?! hahaha.
me.
lol, talk about being kind rightt. hahaha i set the standard. LOL

alrights, going back to my revision now.
all the best for people having exams!
2 killer paper to go!

assignments week.

2007-01-28T21:12:00.000+08:00

hectic weeks!
you can have 3 assignment due in one day and tests in between every other day.
im amazed by my threshold for stress now. haha.
though this week were busy busy busy, something to be happy for it that..
i managed to pass driving! on the 22nd jan.
it seems to be like a dream actually. still is. haha
yesterday after service our caregroup drove up to east coast just to eat macdonalds. haha.
it was really funny. travel so far just to eat macdonalds. haha, maybe east coast mac got more sea breeze taste. hahaha.
anyway, just glad we have this benefit (:
a romantic trip with lots of u-turns. lol.
<3 yall.
more for the Kingdom!

何が違います、教えて。

i desire for a blameless life; it's not worth living for otherwise.

2007 resolution

2007-01-17T01:29:00.000+08:00

In the year 2007 I resolve to:
Getting myself admitted to a mental institution.

Get your resolution here.

haha this is funny.
2007 might be the year i get insanely insane.
what's your 2007 resolution? lol
credits to yuling dear(:

child sexual abuse

2007-01-15T20:02:00.000+08:00

be against child sexual abuse.
this three words should never be together at all.
support this website.

---
they don't need your money, they just need your support.

man of the hour

2007-01-15T09:41:00.000+08:00

Tidal waves don't beg forgiveness
'CRASHED' and on their way
Father he enjoyed collisions;
others walked away
A snowflake falls in may.
And the doors are open now as the bells are ringing out
Cause the man of the hour is taking his final bow
Goodbye for now.

Nature has its own religion; gospel from the land
Father ruled by long division, young men they pretend
Old men comprehend.
And the 'SKY BREAKS' at dawn; shedding light upon this town
They'll all come 'round
Cause the man of the hour is taking his final bow
Goodbye for now.

And the road
The old man paved
The broken seams along the way
The rusted signs, left just for me
He was guiding me, love, his own way
Now the man of the hour is taking his final bow
As the curtain comes down I feel that this is just goodbye for now.

---
just watched Big Fish the movie. felt this songs really relates to the man in the movie.
ever wondered what your friends and family will describe you at your funeral?
this is a story of a great man. not great as in accomplished. in fact great is an understatement.
watched it if you like art central movies. (:
thought provoking, emotions stirring; you will understand what i mean.

came to my rescue

2007-01-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

falling my knees in worship
giving all i am to seek Your face
Lord all i am is Yours

my whole life i placed in Your hands
God of mercy
humbled i bowed down
In Your prescence at Your throne

I called You answered
and You came to my rescue and I,
wana be where You are.

In my life, be lifted high
in our world, be lifted high
in our love, be hifted high

-lead me, guide me, prune me.

i'm willing.

* i know i'm in the middle of becoming a fabulous creation.

i believe i will because i believe my God is working.

back from genting, school starts!

2007-01-05T11:55:00.000+08:00

back a few days ago from my hols.
genting was alright, shopped a little for chinese new year.
bought only one top from genting and one jeans from time square, KL.
travelled down to the city on the third day of the trip and back up in the evening.
luckily i have my cousins with me or i can really bored to death!
most of the days we ate pizza hut or kenny rogers for lunch,
watch movies, went shopping, go bowling or perfecting our parapara for after-lunch-activites and end off the day with delicious coffee bean or baskin robbin's big tub ice cream. yum.
a real slack right. haha. it's a eat-play-eat-sleep routine.
we dont play para in singapore at all but we get so bored of going up to genting so regularly that all we amateurs became pros.
they have like 4 para machines side by side and we all chose the same songs and press start all at the same time and dance all at the same time. haha. you can see the same hand actions from us if you stand behind us. it's quite fun for that moment there.

school started a few days now. did a film for our world issues module. will put it up real soon!

watch this space

p.s: taking away the excruciating pain background clip. if you wana dl please you can save target as at http://sourcream10.tripod.com/Felicia_-_Excruciating_Pain.mp3 (:

laters.

overseas trip

2006-12-29T01:37:00.000+08:00

leaving singapore in 5 hours,
family trip to genting yet againnn.
gonna be there for 5 days till tuesday!
for people who dont know how much i dont like genting, i dont have any problem with the country, but going there twice every year is getting really really mundane and boring. be it whether u go to the queen's palace or the cave.
i can choose not to go, but it's a family trip so i dont think i can say no.
something i realised,
there's something more worse than travelling to genting twice a year;
that is to spend new year's there.
tell me it's going to be fun and exciting mann. lol.

gonna miss yall.
singapore&thecitylife(:
--

random;
God created the way of life, his principles guides us on how things work around here.
for example the law of gravity, principle of you reap what you sow.
it's not a spiritual thing, its a universal thing.
and you need not believe, need not apply but it'll still be there, it'll still work,
no matter what.
(:

happy christmas

2006-12-24T13:16:00.000+08:00

happy christmas yall.
this is a season to be jolly, falalalalalalalala.
just received my first snail mail christmas card, ty lwj((:
also received lots of gifts yesterday during christmas service, i wana thank specifically;(in receiving order)

cheekeong
for your heart-warming card, we really was in this unit together since quite a long time.
we both saw how each other grew and i'm proud you grew that much too(: you know your work is not in vain. ((:

zejun
for your goodie bag! love the skittles and apple mushmallow. haha. thank you for putting that little love of yours in the bag, felt it! share your love this christmas (: be used more for the greater cause. i believe in your willingness.

jo
for your uniquely wrapped cookies. wrapped with aluminium foil! thank you for your best batch of cookies, haha. reminded me on how you always want to give your best in everything you do for the kingdom. and also how you are always beside me serving together, i love you (:

karryn
for your thoughtful notecliper. always top the practical gifts giver list. haha still remember last christmas i got the precious moments scheduler from you. (: it's been one year! this year has been a good year for you, celebrated your h2p bap together carmen. haha, thank God for your simple heart you have for the friends around you. next year will be greater than 2005/6! and i'll see you again x)

and many others
thank you all who thought about me during this season, some may not even read this, probably primary school best friends, you crossed my path in life.
this season i spent time thinking of my every friend, the memories, and i'm thankful all your existence in this life journey made me realise lots of undescribeable feelings. be it comfortable to be with or arguing scences, we learnt and got closer. thanks all.

*thankful.

excruciatingpain.mp3

2006-12-21T19:12:00.000+08:00

wrote this song 2 days ago,
hope you can hear it through the blog background. haha
the lyrics which talks about the pain i felt quite sometime ago.
got over it and moved on (:
just 2 days ago was feeling nostalgic when i travel back to bishan, where all my high shcool memories were at, had quite a few inspiration and thought about the word excruciating.
felt that the phrase "excruciating pain" sounds very.. smooth.
thus, made a song out of it through my lifetime experiences on the thoughts and feelings i got through different stages in life (:

excruciating pain
this pain hurt so bad
it's cutting me within
drawing all of my strength
taking all my hopes away

someone take this pain
save me from this pain
excruciating
eating me away

chrous
hear this cry, can you hear my cry
heal my heart my wound my pain
don't leave me all behind
take my hand, dont run away
it hurts so much
save me save me
excruciating pain

bridge
tell me it's gonna be alright
tell me everything's okay
no,
it doesnt work this way.

hope you liked it!
cheers. (:

stickwitu

2006-12-18T13:03:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybodies breaking up
And Throwing their love away
but i know i got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better
I must stickwitu Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stickwitu
You know how to appreciate me
I must stickwitu
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this wayI must stickwitu

spread the gospel in every thing you do

2006-12-17T17:53:00.000+08:00

i was always in charge of writing seasonal greeting on wrapped presents.
this christmas mum passed me a truckload again and i was writing:

merry christmas
(name here)

jesus: i have come that they may have life,

and have it to the full
-john 10:10

blessed christmas!

this is the first time i'm happy that i have the chance to do this man.

everybody who received my gift will be reminded the best gift they received.

christmas; a season of joy & giving.

do you know the ultimate gift you've been given?

freedom

2006-12-16T05:12:00.000+08:00

common test is over!
surprisingly fast.
this semester was quite a packed one with rushed deadlines and tight schedules,
(because we have to grad early for new students to come in in apr instead of jul!)
we dont even get to have study break. haha. though there're many worries,
blessed to have a group of new friends to study with and went through common test with quite a breeze.
thanks, siyuan and wo5 people(:

holidays are here!
i can already hear the cheers.

i'm going to the zoo zoo zoo, how about you you you.
you can come too too too.
random note; it's inuka's birthday on xmas eve.
my white polar bear. blessed early birthday. i'm gonna go see you soon!

caregroup 291106 BOOBOO MASS MURDER!

2006-12-10T10:25:00.000+08:00

common test week is here!
it's mugging time of the year again. haha, gonna be so busy.
so do pray for wisdom, strength, good health and calm heart for me! haha.
shall update you guys on last last week's caregroup. it's ultra lame so be prepared. haha.

one fine day, rachelle and me went home first to decorate the room.
we put mosquito nets as decoration! so super duper cosy. haha. anyway

i was there,

rachelle was there.

booboo and doggy was there.
i bite you boo!

argh! overruled!

oh no what have you done boo!

boo: im gonna kill you too!!

we both died.
the victorious booboo says heh!

we really had fun lame-ing since such a longgg time. haha we were laughing like crazy women while taking those pictures. rach, let's do it again! hahaha.
had such a great time with the others when they arrived.
love apologetic sessions always!
i love my caregroup!

everybody jiayous for exams this week!
be the salt&light for Him (;

イエスを手伝っています。

2006-11-24T03:19:00.000+08:00

ずっと、どんな人一番好きだ？
知りたいよ。
私のハートを開けって、もう閉められません。
手伝って？
まー、直ぐ止めましょうか。
ハートがとても痛い。リリースの時間を着きます。
"＿＿といしょうにいたい"と言いたい．．．でも、もう知られません。
若しかし、彼知ってるの？

友達のグルプ全然違います。
そして、彼のハート一番大切も友達立ちでしょう。
もちろん、私と彼の友達いしょう．．．でも彼が．．．何もしません。
あー、何をしてがいい？
待ってがいい？
待ったらなければ？

風を見えない。でも肌触れます。
イエスいます。手伝っています！

caregroup 231106

2006-11-23T23:51:00.000+08:00

yayyy. caregroup yet again!
shallnt type too much. enjoy the pictures!

p.s: if you realise, all of us wore our glasses except rach. haha.
kinda funny looking at so many reflective lenses at one go. wahaha.
zhige was there but left early :( didnt get to take her photos. well, here goes!

US; rach, ollie, jo, me.

we are packing up FOR....

yay! pizza for dinner. sumptous meal. yum!

aiyo jo, please close the door. HAHA

elyse and me!

2006-11-22T00:06:00.001+08:00

elyse and me.
haha she was playing the games on my pda phone
taught her to bust the same colour bubbles. she's so happy la. haha.
watch and smile with me. :D

coporate prayer

2006-11-21T10:05:00.000+08:00

came school at 9 today, forgot my first 5 hours of class is cancelled.
so means i have free time till 2pm from now. haha.
that's also kind of good. cos i've so many things to do!
i have :
scm assignment,
ed presentation,
dsa prac test,
mcg detailed layout,
collect and monitor sowing plans,
it goes on and on and on.

since so long since i am so so busy. (;
feels so good to be working hard. haha.
i got the joy, i got the peace of mind.

here are some of the pictures we took during coporate prayer last fri!
such a awesome time.

ze, empty, karryn, fiona, cindy

jo, zhige, xueping.
xue is funny la. hahah. blur face

me and ze

jo and me

booboo was there too :D

i love my boo.

this is random. jean your prayer really touched me. know we are running this race together and what i am going through, i am not alone :)
when i thought nobody on earth understands the hardship im facing, when im running out of breath, you let me know we are hand in hand, both cls of np, running. it comforts me.
fellow cl, fellow partner, how true.
yesterday when you said to meet up for a meal before you leave for china, i refuse cos i know how it feels like to lose another partner in ngee ann ok. i dont want!
i dread to feel another time of heart break like when sam left.
but believeing you will do even greater things in china make me happy.
especially after visiting my aunt's chinese congregation that is made up by most china people, i am convicted you will be able to go and touch the ground there.
we know we are all just simple humble servants :)

happy birthday superxue

2006-11-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

happy blessed 18 superxue! :D

dearly love!
may our friendship grow to a new level this year!
always binded by this covenant :)))

caregroup151106

2006-11-15T23:32:00.000+08:00

great caregroup today!
yuling and zhige couldnt come cos was feeling unwell,
yuling was bringing her bf to see the doc for his sprained back and she herself sprained hers. the vein or sth. lol,
itsfunnyla.
then zhige was having a bad headache so rested at home.
but the bulleting you did was great! ahha everybody enjoyed the cold joke. -.-
xueping needed to accompany her godma who just flew over from london, and olivia misread cg to be on thurs. lol, silly girl.
well, though a the strength was only 4, (jose, rach, xueling and me)
it was great:)

jose improved her guitar skills! everyone commented and gave our praises. haha
rach's holycomm was so creative. haha, here are the pictures!
shall let them do the talking.

jose and camera shy rach preparing!

and me slacking, ya right!

creative rachelle with her paper. guess what is written on it.

and booboo wants to be in this photo too. haha.

diligence us.

oh and near my house, there's this really cool place to chill. it's a cafe called gone fishing. last week me and jo went after caregroup. check it out. you can even draw on their walls. they are that cool. we didnt bring enough cash and they dont accept nets so i just left my particulars and paid them on last sunday. my mother alrdy long forgotten there's such nice people. haha.

lotsa love,
<3!

happy blessed birthday

2006-11-11T11:42:00.000+08:00

blessed 19th birthday to Dawn Tan Huiying!
lol, my nearly-7-years kahki,
today is your day!
it shall be the best birthday you ever had :D
may you continue to grow physically, emotional, mentally ans spiritually!
Thank God for your humble life and hard work for Jesus! :)
i've seen it and experienced it.
Thank God for your never ending love for your people and me,
i know it ain't easy. heh.
being there for each other - our hearts acknowledgment.
all these years it has been a joyride.
and there will be more!
i'll be always there :D

.. to be continued.